Knowing that decisions that you make really matter and trying to survive using the little woodsman ship i do have. Its adventure same as guys climbing Mt Everest. Its hard to give a why as every ones why is different. In my mind its just important to have a why that makes you happy. I saw a quote from a book the other day and thought it was pretty good.
"doing the movements- the degree/the debt, the office job,the pension, the mortgage, waking up every day hating a job you have to work to support the house you didnt really want to buy and the degree you didnt really use for the pension you'll never use becasue you'll get a disease from your misery and die before you can enjoy it isnt living"